My cup runneth over. Repeat as necessary. That is my prescription for sanity. I tell myself that I have this cup, and that it’s really full, and I believe it. The problem is that my cup is straining under its heavy load. My cup is replete with responsibilities, of which I will spare you the list of ingredients. In order to maintain a firm grip on all my marbles I tell myself happy lies, and on good days I can pretend they’re all true. On bad days I think about what I’m saying:
• Everything happens for a reason. (Like when I fell on the ice, or when my dog chewed up my favorite shoe, or violent crimes against innocent people…all those things? Okay, well maybe not everything.)
• It’s all good. (Even in the best of times, it’s not all good. At best it’s mostly good.)
• Everything always works out in the end. (Well, I didn’t say everything works out the way you want it to in the end.)
• This too shall pass. (You might pass along with this, but it is true, everything eventually will end.)
I say these things to myself, and I hear myself saying these things to others because I have to believe them or I won’t get out of bed.
The more specific the lies that I tell myself, the harder they are to believe:
• When I return home from work, my house will be in the same general condition that I’m leaving it in. (Not with teenagers living in the house.)
• Someday I won’t have to work as much as I do now. (I have no exit strategy.)
• Exercising will keep me infinitely young and healthy. (That lie gets me to the gym, and then I believe I deserve to eat cake.)
• If I put my dishes in the dishwasher they’ll be clean at the end of the cycle (my dishwasher has some issues, so this is a lie).
• There is a Mr. Darcy out there for me, and If I don’t get out of bed I’ll never meet him. (Whatever.)
I must keep my lies vague, and I must get out of bed.
The Daily Post, January 18, 2016, Daily Prompt: Reason to Believe~ In Reason to Believe, Bruce Springsteen sings, “At the end of every hard-earned day / people find some reason to believe.” What’s your reason to believe?<a href=”https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/reason-to-believe/”>Reason to Believe</a>